Dad, I'm hungry!

So my Super Muscles is a thinker. He really is. He definitely contemplates what to say and how to say it and he is kind of... dramatic.

So Mr. Wonderful admitted to me this morning that he was being rather lazy and still lazing around in bed at 7:30. The boys were in their bedroom. I am sure SM was playing and the toddler was in his bed talking and such. And I guess Super Muscles tummy started grumbling and talking to him because he yelled to his father...
"DAD! People will die if they don't eat... but they won't die if they get a pop tart"... NICE.

So... Dad got up and got them some food so that the small people in our house wouldn't die. I was out on my Friday morning adventure so didn't get to hear this gem with my own ears. I do get a little sad when I miss the hilarious things my boys says. Maybe next time!

Busy and running

Mr. Wonderful left on Sunday for what I lovingly refer to as a "nerd conference". Yes, if you haven't already noticed the pattern, he goes to quite a few of these a year. So every single moment of my time has been occupied with some very excessively needy children this week. We all miss Daddy. He comes home today though! So we have been going to parks and bowling and to VBS this week to just try to wear out my crazy energetic 4 year old so he would sleep well at night and not cry and fuss. It has worked pretty well and thank goodness! I imagine this weekend is going to be very chill with us just spending lots of time together. It is HOT here in central IL but I have to get some runs in too.

Running is becoming so therapeutic for me and not being able to run for a week has made me a little grumpy. There is just something comforting about only being able to hear your heartbeat, breath and thoughts. The endorphins, the adrenaline, the progress. It is a feeling that you are finally doing something for yourself. It is healing for me to be able to have time to myself to just think and focus on... me. Not me as a mom or a wife. Not me as a that girl with a complicated family or a hurting heart scarred deeply from the past. But. just. me. I can get out the emotions or I can dream or I can just concentrate on my body getting stronger and changing. I can set goals that I CAN accomplish. I know I can accomplish them and that it is only a matter of time before I am stronger and faster and running longer. It never seems hard or complicated. When I get anxious, I can run and run and run and run some more and feel all the tension and stress leave my body. It may come back when I stop running or when I get into the car to drive to counseling but for a little while before something big... I feel half way normal again.

It really is one of those things you think people are a bit psycho about. ha! Who LIKES running? Running can be painful and its boring (it was for a while, I have huge focus/concentration issues). But I have stuck with it and found it to be comforting and familiar and even... enjoyable. Go. Figure. Oh and I can run bases much faster. Just sayin' ;). So if you have thought about it but thought again and changed your mind OR if you have started it and then hated it... I think you should try it again. Try it for a month before you decide. But even if it is not for you, find something that is for YOU. Take care of yourself.

Missing Mr. Wonderful

This is my first time doing the whole "Stay home with 2 kids while my husband is off at a conference" thing. Basically, I am not in love with this whole staying home with 2 kids by myself... thing. I don't remotely understand how single parents do it. I miss my husband so much but mostly I miss having him home in the evenings and nights to help with the boys.

Furthermore, SM is at the age where he is a crazy amount of aware that his dad is not home and he stands at the window every evening and tells me "But Mom, I just miss my Daddy". And my 4 month old (well pretty much a 4 mos old) has, what I think, is a double ear infection. So I called his pediatrician today. Crap, hes out of town on vacation. I called his fill-in dr and the office workers were just... stupid. No, I don't want to make an apt for Monday. If I had wanted to do that, he would be going to see his own doctor. Plus, who wants their baby suffering with an ear infection for an additional 3 days? And we are going out of town on Monday ourselves. All that to say, know who your dr. is filling in for and for how long so you don't have to annoy me next time. So we have gotten NO sleep in my home. And if Super Muscles doesn't stop with the screaming (he just woke up from a nap and is being a beast)... I might put him in the trashcan for the trash men to take in the morning.

Mr. Wonderful is a great daddy though. He helps me with the boys every evening and gets up with them when they are sick at night (we take turns). I am glad he is their dad... really, there isn't a guy who'd be better for the job. I am ready for him to come home and I am ready to get a little bit of sleep. Tomorrow evening won't be here soon enough.

Then, we get to prepare for vacation. 4 glorious days with that guy of mine (and the nursling) to celebrate 5 yrs of marriage. I can't wait. That is my focus point right now. Got to make it through til tomorrow evening!

Until then, I am missing him a lot.

He is my Super Hero... really, he is

Nickname # 3 coming at you... Mr. Wonderful (MW for short cause thats a fistful to type) for my hubby. I just thought I would start off by introducing my family to you starting with my Super Hero husband. The man I admire more than any other person I know. The guy who helps to make all my dreams come true and the father of our two very incredible children.

Loves Jesus, family, and science.

Strong, handsome blue eyed man who, hands down, give the best hugs of anyone I know... he is stingy with them though.

He is kind, funny, smart (most people put that first for him but he is SO much more than smart... so so much more), a decision maker, a problem solver, proud daddy, hardworking...

He is willing to help anyone anytime. Thats just how he is.

He mows the grass because I am more allergic to it than he is.

He coos at our baby boy and it melts my heart into a puddle.

He teachers Super Muscles big words like "buckminsterfullerine" and how to appropriately use them.

He doesn't like to argue and speaks softly 99.9% of the time.

Not too easy to excite, likes to keep his emotions in check.

Logical and practical.

The best person I know to watch football with and baseball and Seinfeld.

He generally doesn't laugh loudly... unless he is watching AFV with Super Muscles (SM). Then, I hear nothing but cackles from my two handsome guys.

He IS the grillmaster.

Forgiving and willing to sacrafice time and time again for our family.

Lover of all things nerd.

Robert Jordan (The Wheel of Time) fan.

Hater of the sun (AKA "the death orb" in our home)

And so much more. A fantastic man who I am thankful to have in my life. I am so glad to share my life with him and look forward to every day we spend together and every night I get to lay down and snuggle into sleep with him.

We celebrate 5 yrs of marriage in a bit over 2 weeks. It has been a wild ride but there is no one I would rather go on this journey with. I love you Mr. Wonderful!